So normally this is the time where the whole class would be
in a panic but some reason as a group we mainly managed to stay claim, how I will
never quite know. This performance for me was the best that we have done in
college by far, as we all worked as a team and we all helped each other we need
to be. so mainly even though I didn’t really show it at the start off the week
I was so scared to do my speech if Shakespeare; I practice it every night
before on the Monday when I left college I didn’t know the end this bought to
the worst mind-set that I have ever been with my lines. This meant I would
relay it on the bus, yes I did get strange looks but it was worth it. The next
day some reason I woke up speaking the end on my speech, when I relayed it back
to people my heart began to rush faster and faster every time it was like I
could hear my own heart beating inside of my head, I think this was main course
that made me forget certain parts as I would rush forward before I had said the
line. that’s why I’m so glad we have the group that we have as they have supported
me so much with this as I knew they knew how I felt and how scared I was about
it; later that Tuesday there was a few members of the class in the theatre so I
wanted to take the opportune to say the speech on stage; while performing it I
knew it could of been better but I tried that was a main thing and I never forgot
my lines, at this point I just wanted support but a member of the class gave me
some feedback that knocked my confidence, but this made me want to defeat the comment
they made so it made me work harder. As in life I have known learnt that people
can knock you down but if you let it hold you down you will never go forward so
you have just got to more and step over it to become a better person.
One other issue that we was struggling with at the start of the week and this was moving the wardrobe during the transactions espial the fact that I was some one that set it at the start of the play. this took a few times to get right and even during the first two performance it wasn’t the best but during the night some reason we had worked out small signs that we used to tell each other that it need to be moved. I think that it was an issue at first because of the amount of short time we had to move the wardrobe.
Custom was not a thing that I was not even thinking about till I walked into Mondays class and Karen said to me, this is when I realise that I need it for the next day luckily I spoke to Elle and she had a white dress that I could lend, even though it was Morden I had a shirt that I looked like it was something that could go over the top to make it over to make it look less Morden day and more from the 1665.
During the performance and tech runs there was some penetrations in which I was struggling with and I was founding hard to overcome, in in the last performance I hadn’t overcame this, it was words such as 'to' instead I was saying more of 'two'; Abbie suggest that instead of trying to say 'to' why don’t you say 'ant' as therefore you was getting 'and to suns' still as the sounds where now there but making the speech sound more clearly to the audience.
The reason why I wanted the speech and scene four to be perfect was because it was the first time that my parents had watched me perform within 10 years and guess i just wanted them to see in why I do acting and some performance arts as I know that deep down that I’m not the best person at acdimc subjects but I still try my hardest as I enjoy them. So I felt that if they watched me they would understand me better; I felt that scene four had a lot of energy as we was used to performing it in such a bigger space but ones we found out that it was to be performance in the wardrobe apart from the end part of the speech; it was struggle to conduct it to the small space; as the sage directions that we had was a lot harder to do as we kept tripping in the dresses, to be truthful I felt like an clown but afterward I understand why Karen had made the change and I’m glad that it was as our scene had more of an impact to the audience eye begin performed in the small space.
